Johan Esk: Vonn became like Beckham – but the concern is not that Nykänen

the Day before utförsåkaren Lindsey Vonn was about to enter his last championship came the news that the ski jumper Matti Nykänen was dead.

Without seeming uncaring, my spontaneous reaction was:

Huh? He lived still?

Matti Nykänens destiny took a hold of me. He was a divine ski jumper, he lived hardly, as God's best children for career.

awakens my full admiration but considering all the career contained and my interest in skiing, she should fascinate more.

When Lindsey Vonn on Tuesday had a press conference in Åre it was a avskedsföreställning. It became clear how unsafe she feels in the face of it that is waiting, how much she will miss the emotional kicks, cross-country skiing provides. The adrenaline rush of the speed create, where will she find it? She said that she did not know.

It is unusual that someone does that Vonn, recognizing that his career will leave a hole and talking about it even before the (Sunday's downhill) end.

It is with Vonns downhill with Nykänens ski jumping. Just the idea of that test raises the normal funtades horror.

and the danger that it was for Nykänen with the feeling to fly. A drug difficult to be without, maybe impossible to replace.

Nykänens life after his career was, at times, a mixture of misery, abuse and ill-treatment. He was sentenced to prison for assault two times.

"Hell is not as bad as my life was," he said in an interview at the end of 2017.

There was a time when the male of the misery that resulted in the ill-treatment smooth over any major misshandlaren done. We are starting, thankfully, to be over the time.

former sports stars that fall after the career. For in the case is the explanation to what once made the athlete the best.

eventually it gives up, beaten, kicksökandet. Recklessness against your own feelings. The courage that bordered on madness. And the energy that is created when the competition can lead to success or disaster.

Everything that can be so valuable when an athlete should become the best can put the compass out of the game when the life after the career.

two weeks ago told Nykänen, according to Expressen that he still dreamed about ski jumping.

" In my dreams I jump far, far away. When I wake up the feeling still remain in the body. The memory of flying, nothing can win against it, it is a heavenly feeling. Alone in the air.

There has been a movie about Matti Nykänens life. His life was like a movie without a happy ending. He was 55 years of age.

Lindsey Vonns career to keep to a script but such a film would not feel like an original.

Her life has in recent years resembled a Hollywood production, or Netflix series. With her in the lead role and with product placement and all.

She has experienced heaven and hell. Victories and crashes. It has been injured knees and broken hearts.

Everything has been packaged in a way to the surface, dazzled the rest of the all inner darkness. When she had spoken out, the words sounded so planned and balanced that it has been difficult to discern what has been directed, and what had been pure tragedy.

what David Beckham was to soccer. Someone who introduced a new kind of celebrity status in the sport.

She has spoken out with a Red Bull logo in the forehead. Let the tears roll forth below sponsored sunglasses. She has been sitting in the talk shows and gone on the red carpets. People who don't know what alpine skiing is still have an eye on Lindsey Vonn.

Everyone should be able to make money at their sport and I know that I'm talking to myself as a journalist because we want the stars to bid on themselves.

But when Vonn commanded himself, it has become a product package with extra everything and it has become too much, as it often was with Beckham.

however, it's always aroused my admiration. Just for that, she was always given everything. Often, she has given too much in there too. She loves the speed, she want it so much that she sometimes lost the tactic and control, and crashed hard.

on Tuesday, it came in the super-G and all of us in the target area, fearing that it was there, in a safety net, Vonns career would end.

Lindsey Vonn will not be Lindsey Vonn if she did not rest and in the afternoon she had her press conference. It had been postponed until one day. The rumors said it was due to not enough of the media had reached.

Lindsey Vonn joked and played out the entire pr-proffsigheten american actors and athletes can pick up when they want to.

the Questions dried up, the press conference started to go at idle. Then something strange happened, it felt like Lindsey Vonn did not want it to end.

in life on the other side of the skiing, but the body can not cope with more. After the world CUP, waiting even a knee surgery.

in 2007, she took the world CHAMPIONSHIP silver in the mountains behind Anja Pärson. Lindsey was named Kildow in the last name then.

It has a total of just three gold in the world CHAMPIONSHIPS and the OLYMPICS. In the world cup, she has 82 victories. No female skiers have been better.