The cap Constantin Braun is wearing a casual upside down on the head. T-Shirt and shorts, his Tattoos on the arms and legs. To do this, he shines all over the face and says: "I'm fine. It all fits in.“ For almost half a year of the 30 had been missing-Year-old polar bear Berlin last. Not because of an injury, but because of a therapy for his alcohol addiction.
On Thursday after Training in the sports forum Hohenschönhausen brown speaks publicly for the first time over the past few months and his return in the normal everyday life of an ice hockey professionals. "The feeling to be back on the ice, is outstanding. I have been playing hockey since I was four years old. Because what's a if you can't do this for a couple of months,“ he says.
1. August shared with the Berlin polar bears, brown goes voluntarily into treatment against his Addiction. That an athlete admitted his alcoholism to the public, doesn't happen often. It is a social taboo, which is connected in known to be Concerned, often with incalculable risks, not only in the sporting field. Among other things, that's why brown was at the time, deliberately, with the topic: "My decision to the Public, was quite selfish. Because it in rehab determined people would have given would have known who I am.“ He would have took the pressure. Because to hide who you are, is a difficult told brown.
Especially since in his case. The native of Lampert Heimer was already twice due to depression in Rehabilitation – 2013, and 2017. "This is now a very different Situation than a few years ago. It is a different type of disease,“ he says. Some of the other thought about that in light of such diagnoses, already a the end of the professional career. Not-so-Constantin Braun. "That I stop with the handball, was never a debate," he says. However, no one could know what the future holds: "What is in the three or twelve months – I have no idea. I go from day to day, because the longer you do not should have a plan for what I was.“
The long way back
Since this week, brown is back with his team-mates in Training on the ice. Normally, the softest players in the units of the yellow Jersey. Brown has on Thursday in the corrugated sheet Palace blue Jersey, as all the other fit players in the Berlin. Due to staff shortages, the rumor among those in attendance immediately that he could give on Friday in the game against Mannheim might be a Comeback. Coach and sports Director Stéphane Richer has to smile about it: "I'd take him, but we need to take it slow. It is not a question of days but of weeks.“
brown is no specific comeback target, he enjoys it just to be there and to work. "I was five months in therapy. In the clinic, there was also, of course, a fitness room, but not to the extent that I can do here,“ he says. The intensity of the Training with the team was a lot higher, "that's why I also have muscle soreness. But in order to Wake up, is a pleasant feeling,“ he says and smiles.
brown was always seen as a relaxed guy who wears the heart on the tongue. He looks big and strong but at times weak and fragile. Anyone who has seen Braun now for the first Time, can only imagine what he must have been through in the past months and years. And what kind of questions he puts himself in these days again and again: "How the body reacts? How is it on ice? The Training works?“ At the Moment, working brown says. Also because he wants to play more hockey and "because, for me, is also not an Option B to make now just what else."
However, if the Sport was his passion, so he makes only a couple of hours of the day. In the rest of everyday life had to brown out again. This went via a special load tests during the therapy, as he had for days or weekends travelling home to see how he comes clear. Finally, he was isolated in the rehab of everything, now he must face the normality, with all its temptations. "You learn to be very careful with yourself and listen to yourself. If a Situation charged too much, then I just stand and go,“ says brown.
The polar bears have not dropped
The questions after his illness, the therapy and how he deals with all the masters he this Thursday scores. If it is too sensitive, takes brown the right to give no answer. And yet he acts like someone who has everything under control. It is a fragile Structure, brown and white. To his luck, he in the past always on the support of his employer. "If the club is behind you, of course, one less thing to worry about. You should now think about it, maybe unemployed, you would have to carry a pack anymore," says brown, and the polar bears are "a compliment": "you were there again, as I needed her." Now it is time to give something back.More about
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Whether he will be sporty at some point again in the position at the Moment is beside the point. Brown is happy to be a part of the team and to be able to look into the matter, which means so much to him. Its, hopefully, overcome alcohol dependency, and the public in how to use it, however, is not just for the football of importance. "It is an issue that not only concerns me," says brown, and looks thoughtful.
Shortly afterwards, the wide Grin returns to his face. For a photo, he plucks once again, cap, Shirt, and pants and looks then in the direction of the people in front of him. "Do you have any more questions?" It is a Moment of silence – Constantin laughs exempt.