it All began - or sort of ended - on the eve of epiphany 2015. I suffer at bedtime my bad headaches, which was absolutely exceptional - I have never had a headache. I hope the night sleep help and wake up to a new day refreshed.
fall asleep too easily and I slept very well. This morning however, I woke up to the same pain, and the feeling was melancholy and in all vieraudessaan oppressive. I feel like everything would have collapsed overnight.
I Saw the deputy director of Maaret Lundahl start the burnout story Force back in the book (kustannus Oy Duodecim 2018), which he wrote together työtervsypsykologi and psychotherapist Sanna lobby on.
Ill Lundahl worked in the criminal sanctions agency assessment center specialist designer and supervisor. His team's task was to produce to the court the expert opinions of suspected offenders.Psychological and physical symptoms
Maaret told, that strange presence passed, though he tried to keep daily routines to catch up and proceed as before. All, however, was foggy, difficult and Maaretista felt that he was not present in his life.
my Symptoms were at the same time mental and physical. I had heart palpitations, constant headaches, fatigue, sore throat, loss of appetite, cold, feet tingling, he told me.
at the Same time began to cognitive problems. Milk changed in the speech of skim-milk, and I'd forget pin numbers. That had not happened ever before. It feels uncomfortable and scary.
One of the most haunted of the most interesting feelings was Maaretin according to self-fear of losing control. That's why he wanted to avoid, for example driving a car. What if you would press the gas to the brake instead, or the other way around?I Learned to admit my limitations. Thus it has been possible to better identify burnout signs. I know I'm not immune to this phenomenon, Maaret Lundahl said. JENNI GÄSTGIVAR"I couldn't even cry,"
Maaret filed for medical service, where the first thing was to rule out physical illnesses. The heart was examined, and the brain mri was a headache.
I didn't know, did I fear a brain tumor, heart failure or exhaustion.
Maaret had not been had no idea, that exhaustion can be started so suddenly and with a bang.
- At the time I would have been even easier to accept the psychosomatic disease as partly self-inflicted exhaustion, that brought shame and a sense of failure.
my confidence was at the bottom. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I had lost contact with my feelings - not only the anxiety that pushes on like a tidal wave.
Maaret knew that he had done too much work to too large a fire. At the same time her curious about other people's reactions. Could share everything without hiding anything? How much is wise to say out loud?"Rush was working in normal mode"
Maaret Lundahl said that in retrospect the warning signs had been there for a long time. He was aware that the pace of work was excessive, but thought that all the tasks were human-sized. Only had to deal with.
I wasn't cynical and indifferent. On the contrary, I experienced my work meaningful and interesting, and I was committed to it, which is why I think I'm immune uupumiselle.
- Later, I could say I have lived my values. If you'd asked me what was in my life the most important thing, I would have certainly answered, that the family. The fact was, however, that job took me at the time, most of the.
a Couple of days before the collapse of Maaret had a sore throat for the doctor. At that time, the doctor was asked what the situation was at work.
I Remember saying that at work, no normal abnormal - and there wasn't, the rush was on normal mode in our unit. A couple of days after the crash I met the same doctor and I said I didn't anymore.Yourself have to give time to recover. Patience is not my strength, and in this process it really has been put to the test, Maaret Lundahl said. JENNI GÄSTGIVAR"I wanted To be obedient patient"
Maaret Lundahl sick-leave, which was granted a total of three weeks, always one week at a time.
He rested a day and a night and played in between the children with board games. The brain seemed to be working out all the time in overdrive. The whole time there was a need to think about what happened, look for reasons and fear the consequences.
I Met the doctor every week. At the same time I had pressure to get myself in a week okay, so I could get to work again. Week after week, I experienced myself as a failure, when I managed to gather enough strength.
Soon Maaret begins to realize that he can perform the healing, but needs time to recover.
my Feelings were conflicting. I wanted to be an obedient patient and come back soon back to work, while on the other hand, I know I'm long sick leave I need.
- afterwards I thought that I would have been a longer sick leave and a break in need. However, I never asked or demanded it, but to trust healthcare professionals."my Body went into overdrive"
When from the heart and not the brain found in the occupational health services of anything suspicious, Maaretille to make further studies of thyroid function to determine. He also got the chance to visit the occupational health psychologist as well as psychiatrist.
I Remember the psychiatrist asking why I smile, even though I talk about difficult things and kriisiytyy prevent life situation. I was with him ylikunnossa - or at least was before the collapse.
Overtraining described me very well. My body went into overdrive, and not allowed to rest even while you sleep. I had worked a long time on the edge, as if the battle mode, which had lasted too long.
Lundahl experience psychologist and psychiatrist appointments good. The feeling that left alone. Even that felt good, that things was able to talk without hämmästelyä and embellish. Things felt normal and manageable from."Doctor respected my attitude"
the Psychiatrist also ordered medication, but Maaretin install drugs was negative. He believed that the mind of the node are opened by thinking and rationalizing things.
When I was offered antidepressants, I felt that I wasn't depressed, but exhausted, mentally and physically. The hard drive was fried. I told the doctor that my own such problems are pinned, you only need a little rest.
the Doctor respected patient autonomy, but to discuss the medication, however, remained Maaretin to mind as one of the means, if I don't feel better in other ways. In the end he resorted to a bit of time anti-depressants, which allows the quality of sleep was better.
Maaret also spoke with related parties and gathered them around the network, which may have been in telephone contact with at any time.
- with This I also wanted to lighten my husband's burden, as he left the everyday running.Dearest exercise is volleyball. Exhaustion in the acute stage I noticed that the sports of no work recovery resort, Maaret Lundahl said. JENNI gästgivar piintynyttä the pace of work difficult to change the
Exhaustion during the period preceding the sports Maaretilla still the head of the reset, even though the stress levels were elevated. Exhaustion in the acute stage of playing sports wasn't a good way.
I Drove myself even more pressure, because I believed at the time that exercise is the restoring force, and I didn't understand to stop. I think that the lethargy would be possible to top a lot faster if I would stick to daily routines. In this I was wrong.
Maaret Lundahl returned to work first osasairaus holiday types, i.e. he made a five-day working week the normal shorter working days. After he returned to a holiday season full time job.
- Return to work I was nervous. I wasn't afraid of the return of the work environment, or been ashamed of my illness of character, but I was afraid of collapse was again, because I was still so vulnerable and fragile.
- from Work I had noticed how difficult it was to change the deep-rooted work practices and pace of work, even though I had it reserved and committed."Much has still to learn"
Maaret Lundahlin view osasairaus holiday is good, because it gives the opportunity to rest during the day as well.
- the Recovery process is shown to take time, and its slow it's frustrating. Patience is not my strength, and in this process it really has been put to the test.
- the Path towards a more balanced life is to fit as frustration than successes, positive emotions and objectives. Experience, however, that I have reached toward a healthier relationship between work and the worker.
I've learned to say no and I've learned to calm down and focus, but much is still to learn.
Now he works as an assistant director of the criminal sanctions agency under the Helsinki community sanctions office. The office is tasked, inter alia, avoseuraamusten implementation such as youth conditional judgment related control.
the Thing is published for the first time in June 2018.