HS: javelin thrower Sanni Utriainen saw and heard hallucinations - also suffered from insomnia, depression and eating difficulties

Javelin thrower Sanni Utriainen, 27, told the Helsingin sanomat his career as a hard phase.Sanni Utriainen career has been fraught with difficulties. EPA / AOP

Utriainen won the under 20-year-old world championship gold medal in 2010, but after the career has not gone according to plan.

– It media blast, it's attention which will then surprise you a little of the human mind. People lose focus. I was for a while, maybe a doll for the audience and the media, and I just wanted to entertain them. Forget the kind of sport completely, Utriainen told Helsinki said for the junior cup after time.

– the External pressure or the idea received too much importance.

Two years later, Utriainen failed to Helsinki championship finals, after which he began having trouble sleeping. The young woman was not able to sleep in preparation for the London olympic games. In addition, Utriainen heard and saw hallucinations. The olympic games ended in the qualifying round.

In 2013, the sleeping problems returned, when the front was less than a 23-year-old championship. At the same time Utriaisella also had eating difficulties.

the Rio olympics again overshadowed by the death of a loved, but Utriainen still I decided to go mobile.

I Was mentally at that point already hit a hot mode according to their own personal situation my. It was a really difficult trip, Utriainen told Helsinki Said.

– Try to build even a warm-up spot for myself a certain false state of being. The probe led to believe, although I would have liked to stay home and curl up in a blanket.

Last spring, Utriainen was already so late, that he burst into tears in the middle of practice. Now, half a year later, he pondered the Helsingin sanomat in an interview the reasons for the collapse.

I'm quite honestly afraid of the kind of value the race of the failure is referring to. If not the do value games in real quick, then stamped. There is a lot of such, that it can never hope to match the value of the race.

Utriainen told that they suffered also from depression.

– the first time the longer the depressive episode was the London after the olympic games, what little säikähdinkin. Didn't get it, and then fright, when not leaving the same vigor to mobilize than in previous syksyinä to do the basic condition of the season.

the pressure of in addition, Utriainen mind are the press also unclear coaching patterns and monetary concerns, but now the woman is preparing already looking forward to the upcoming season. He won't let no outside pressure to influence themselves.

– If I don't value race, you do or get there, my identity does not press on the minus side, Utriainen says.

Title edited at 9.05.