Was on top of the world: Bread complete

When the Swedish Robin Söderling stopped his career in 2015 at the age of 31, it was four years ago, he last stood on a tennis court.

the Swede tells now åbenhjertet about the reason for the long goodbye, came of a long battle with mental illness.

It tells the former number four in the world to the Swedish radio show 'Sommar on P1' according to Expressen.

- I discovered that I had googlet various approaches to suicide, he says among other things in the program.

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Söderling sat like as pictured: But the towels on the head and the hands to the ears, when there was a break in the game. Photo: Suzanne Plunkett/Ritzau Scanpix

Söderling had a brilliant year in 2009, where he beat, among others, Rafael Nadal and Novak Djokovic, who had started to establish themselves as the big stars, they to this day are in the sport.

He reached the finals at the French Open and repeated the feat the year after, and the cast also prides by itself from the iconic countryman Björn Borg.

- he Continues like this he wins a Grand Slam next year and he will certainly be among the top five, said the Borg, among other things, to Expressen, after the fellow had beaten Djokovic.

But under the facade began to crumble for Robin Söderling.

the Pressure was too great.

Because he was going to try to follow up on its quarter-finals at the US Open in 2009 and 2010 at the tournament in 2011, he broke together in her hotel room, up to the start of a tournament.

- I went into a panic. I began to cry. I cried and cried. Each time, I imagined, I should enter on the pitch, I went into a panic, he tells on the radio show.

Even if I got a gun to the forehead, would I be able to go on the field, he says also.

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It is really few have been able to beat Rafael Nadal at spanierens absolute home, the field. However, for Söderling in 2009 during the French Open - as one of just three ever since Nadal made his debut in 2005. Photo: Bogdan Cristel/Ritzau Scanpix

even Though Robin Söderling were down, so was never close to making the seriousness of his suicidal thoughts, he says.

- Now it feels completely crazy. It does. You get a different understanding for those who do it, but I don't think it's about to die. It is the last thing you want to do, he says.

Most of all, Söderling a man who had pushed himself too much, and as bothered by shortness of breath and panic attacks in addition to his gloomy thoughts.

In the six and a half years had the swede to fight himself out of his mental illness, before it succeeded.

In all the time was the wife Jenni an immovable rock for him.

- I do not understand how she has stood against me. A self-absorbed, mentally ill man, who put his sport over themselves. Even though I was sick, was ashamed I am of myself and what I said, telling Robin Söderling.

today, he has come to his psychological illness for life, and has got the at a distance, why he can tell you about it.

For it was not been as active.

- Having one's career is that nobody is talking about it. It shows nothing for its opponents. It is easier for. Here, I sense that there are many who do not have the game good, why it feels important to tell about, " says Söderling.

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