Helena Lindblad: was Suddenly 22 years of intensive barnliv just over

Last year at this time, when the family's youngest ran around with studentmössan on anchor, I went a long detour around the Wound Skugges book ”Flygfärdig: when your children leave the nest”. It felt as if it was on all colleagues ' table in the newsroom and as well as cried out melancholy, ”You are soon one of them, who have no children left at home”.

and in small doses, try to visualize how it would be when her daughter ”left the nest”. It was horrible. How it would feel when I no longer, at any time, would be able to put his nose against her cheek and feel the slight scent of honey?

Suddenly the 22 years of high-intensity barnliv, when I essentially existed for my flesh and blood, just ... over. When she wanted to begin to clear and clean up the chaos in his room, I got near on panic attacks and just wanted to stop the time and say (for the first time): ”Your mess is okay, it may well be the remain, only you remain.”

. A little empty of course, but more nostalgic than sad. A fresh new start. The completely unexpected feeling of freedom to aimlessly do what they want with their evenings and weekends are almost like a buzz. It is a bit like to go back in time to a sorglösare era. When she is calling and chirping from his life in another country, we are probably almost as happy both.

It was not so stupid to stop on the mammajobbet anyway. In particular, that they still have the best tjänsteförmånerna, but none of the responsibility for the ground handling.

Helena Lindblad is filmredaktör on DN and look forward to season 2 of the reality series about being a parent, now with adult children.